Forty-Four Day Fast

Forty-Four Day FAST

February 18th - April 4th, 2010

 

  Tonight when I returned home from my class, I felt like I needed to fast.  As I was sitting in the chair in my living room I was thinking about what I could fast and how long should I fast.  Today is Ash Wednesday, and it is forty-four days away from Easter so that is how long I am going to fast.

I am not fasting because it is the season of 'lent' but I am fasting to produce a habit.  I want to produce a habit to seek God intensely no matter what.

Here is what I am fasting......From 8AM - 6PM, I will have NO Online Entertainment (movies, games, social sites, etc)

 You might be saying that this could be easy, but the secret is that I enjoy watching movies, TV series or being a certain sites on the web.  So this is going to be a sacrifice and I think that is why I was prompted to fast this item.

Now you are aware of how my next 44 days will be spent, and I am excited to see what God will do during this time and how God will handle the items I will be specifically fasting for.

Until next time, I am out --J

WOW....February 2010

WOW!!!

This month has been amazing and challenging.  February is not even over yet and I have enjoyed each obstacle, I have faced.

I have learned so much this week.  Last Sunday morning, I was watching WHC Live and Pastor Parsley preached his best sermon yet.   It was a word that I needed to hear.  He talked about how we need to seek after God.  He gave examples about how people seek God intensely when they are going through something challenging or dealing with a tragedy, but when we reach the other side folks forget to continue to seek God intensely. He also talked about how God stands back a little bit to see if we will still seek after him when life is 'Good'.  

I realized that even though I want more of God and desire to live for him all of my days; I also forget to seek him intensely.  My life is amazing; even though lately I probably have not made some great decisions and I am going through a hard patch, I know - I am still Blessed.  This week I have been seeking God more than I have in a long time and I want to continue seeking him intensely.  It is so funny how God shows up and shows out in your life and people around you show you how amazing God is.  

Let me give you an example.....This week my car decided not to work properly even though I just put a great deal of money into it.  I had to make a decision because I need a car.  So on Tuesday I decided to rent a vehicle and even though Tuesday morning was so stressful and I was not sure where the money was coming from for this rental.  I still make it to my client's visit.  While I was sitting in the waiting room with my coworker A*** she said something so amazing.  She told me just drive the car and let the mileage you receive from **** pay for the car.   That made my day because God showed up again and worked through someone that has no influence on my spiritual life to show me that things will be alright.

I don't know about you, but I know I am going to seek God intensely.  Seek Him like it is the last think I do and Seek Him like there is no Tomorrow.

This year has just started but I have learned so much and can not wait to see what God does for me the coming months of 2010.

Until next time....Seek God will all your might and heart!  I am out --J

Taking myself out of the equation......

Taking myself out of the equation

It's the middle of February...

WOW!  I can not believe it is already the middle of February.  In a couple of weeks I will be loading a plane and heading done South to Nicaragua.

So this week I decided to take me out of the equation of my life.  I want what God has for my life and I also decided not to rush into anything major without consulting God first.  I heard once that it could be someone trying to get out of a situation when they say 'I have to pray about it'  because this person said we should already know what God wants for our life and situation.  I agree a little bit on this statement, but I also think a person should pray about major decisions in their life to make sure that it is a 'God' decision and not just a 'Good' decision.

Lately, I have been searching for which direction professionally I should head in.  I really enjoy what I am doing in my internship.  It is great to be working with a family to help them find the resources they need to succeed.  I asked a coworker's opinion on my next professional move and she said, "I see you doing something that challenges you where every you may live, you are a multitask-er and you need to be challenge if not you could get bored."

Well there it is folks, a bunch has happen this February and I am enjoying taking me out of the equation and see what God will do.  I will say that I am still determine to complete my goal.  God has opened up a few doors for me to meet some amazing people but I know that if it is God's desire for me to continue a relationship with them than God will open that door wide open and if not He will close it.  Producing habits is going to be an amazing thing and I know that I am determine to continue to take care of my health and one day something amazing will happen.....

For now I am out,  J

Today I remember to enjoy God.....

Enjoy God!

These last few days have reminded me to step back and enjoy God.  On Sunday, I was reminded what part of my testimony was when my brother Joe confirmed his faith and got baptized.  Before he was about to get baptized the preacher asked him to describe the moment he found Christ.  He told part of our story and it reminded me where we came from and how amazing my mother was because she took us out of an environment that was not great and traveled across the country to bring us to a place where we could live in a different environment. 

I know where I came from and am so excited that I have had the opportunity to experience these opportunities because they have helped me develop in the person I am today.  Sometimes I wonder why I do not tell people my whole testimony or the experiences I have walked through, but than I think that people would not understand and would judge me for the life I have lived.  My mom reminded me of a situation we experienced on our drive here from Colorado and how a truck driver with out a face helped us out.  He paid for us to sleep in a hotel room and borrowed a waitress car to take us to and from the hotel.  I remember that man even though we were very little and I thank God that even than he has protected my family and provided for us when we were in need.

So God is amazing and I am thankful to experience him deeper.  I am excited to share my testimony when I feel the time is right and to always make sure God leads me.  I am searching for a great experience with him and draw closer to His Word, knowing that this month I will 'Produce Habits'.  

So that is why I am enjoying God and I also thank God that he will continue to bless my BFF as she continues to journey through her 30 days with God and I pray God will help her find what she is searching for..........

So for now I am out and remember to enjoy God with everything you have ----J

When God rebukes you.....

Sometimes I need to be reminded who is in charge of my life......

This last week I was attending a worship service.  I did not want to be there because it was mandatory for me as I was an employee of the organization.  

As I was worshiping God, He rebuked me.  I have not been excited to go to events or do any work related to this employer of mine.  But than God told me that it does not matter I should still do everything to glorify Him and I should stop being selfish.  He reminded me that I am still on a mission field and that every person I come in contact with will not be flexible and could be demanding.  He reminded me that the field I am going into is not always easy and enjoyable for people, but with everything I do I need to Glorify Him and remember ultimately who I am serving and why I do what I do.

God also reminded me that I forgot to ask him for guidance in the projects I am working on.  Since I have included God I have enjoyed my job and am excited to finish the project and watch God get all the glory.

Even though I think I am on the same page with God sometime my 'self' gets in the way and I love when God corrects and rebukes me to remind me who is ultimately in charge.

Praise God!  But for now I am out and remember to Love God and look to him ---J

February 2010 - Theme

February 2010

Theme:  'Produce Habit'

 

I still can not believe that it is February 2010....So many college students I have came in contact these last few weeks say they want to redo January and tonight there is an event to redo New Year's Eve 2010.  I have to say I have had an amazing year so far.

Yesterday on February 3rd, 2010, I was praying about what my theme for this month would be and I decided that this month I will work on 'Produce Habit'.   In January I had the opportunity to build a foundation to jump start this year even though I have battled some health issues.  Praise God it is time to find out how February of 2010 will be and to Produce and create habits in my life.

Until next time,  I am out ---J

God always seems to show up at the right time....

These last few weeks have been interesting. 

I have been seeking God for some answers and God has been opening opportunities and he has answered some prayers of mine for my family.  First of all my oldest sibling is getting baptized this Sunday.  I am so excited for him and thrilled that I get to part take in this day.  Also another member of my family is finally receiving the help he needs and I am proud of him for taking the steps to seek medical treatment.  God is so amazing.....He seems to to always show up at the right time. 

Yesterday, I was sitting with a friend of mine when one of my professors decided to join us.  This professor have a PHD, and he has worked in his own practice at one time.  So I decided to ask him something that I have been thinking about for awhile, 'Could someone with a LBSW still work in an environment that does not have a LMSW.'  He said yes, but it depends on the policy of the State you live in.  That one statement helped me realize that it is a possibility to do both passions I have when I transition to Ohio. 

WOW, God is good!  Now I need to start researching some of the desires/ideas God has placed inside of me and the professional opportunities that I might pursue in the future.

Well I am out for now but I will do my best to keep my blog up-to-date.....

For now be Blessed, I am out --J

Ohio, part 1

Ohio......

In a few months I will be heading back to Columbus, Ohio.  I am excited and nervous because I am not sure what to expect.  I am excited to be a part of a Church that is doing amazing things and tons of people are getting touched.  I know that my faith will grow even more and I will be covered by an AMAZING anointing. 

I am also excited to finally have my own place.  I have been looking forward to the day where I can call a place home and invite folks over to entertain. 

I guess I am nervous about what direction I should go professionally.  I know that there are a couple areas I would love to volunteer in and if a job opened up in one of them I would apply immediately.  I also have an opportunity to work with an amazing person again, but I wonder if there is a place for me in that business.  I do not want to go there thinking that I am better than anyone else but I do know that I have resources and experience in me that is waiting to help further the next position/business I step into.

I also would love to start a business that has been stiring inside of me.  I do know I will take one step at a time and I believe that God will direct my path and bless it

So for now, those are my thoughts on Ohio....Please pray that every decision I make is done with clarity and prayer.  May God Bless you and your family!

Until next time I am out, ----J

January 2010 is over..

January has been a good month.  I think I have accomplished the Foundation for my year.  I have made steps to create a fitness plan and add more protein into my diet which I am exited about.  I can continue to read God's word.  I did buy a Bible that is in book format and hope to start to read that in the upcoming weeks.  I am still working on my budget and hope to be following my month budget this month.

So if I was honest with myself I would say that I still have waves to go to create these aspects a habit for my daily life, but plans are in place to make them a habit.

.....On a brighter note I have to say January has been a good and I can not wait to see what the rest of 2010 has in store for me.  I think my decision to go to Ohio is something I have to do and it is a God's decision because since I have decided to officially go my health has been tested.  I have been facing some major headaches and just recently one of these headaches but me in the hospital for a few hours, but Praise God! I am pulling out of it and eventually I will be back to normal.

So I say goodbye to January and Hello to February; i am excited to see what this month has in store for me...


I am out for now, J